Listening to: Tegan and Sara
Last week i was watching this GMA late night documentary where in they were showing these little kids, little school kids getting trash in the dump site river for a living. They go to the site and pick all the thrashes they could and then they bring it back to this place in exchange for money. They earn P12 a day. They have no tsinelas or whatsoever. Two little kids got infections by stepping on some rusty stuff. The infection was eating up their feet like some rotten food and they still would not stop because their parents do not work. They go to school, in fact the other one..the little girl is in the top of her class. She does not have shoes for school so imagine the pain while walking. What really killed me was the look in the girls' eyes. She will not stop working and going to school. She know what she wants in life at that young age. She said she does not want to grow up stupid.
The same week, i was in the car with my group mates, on the way to Publicis, an ad agency to meet up with the Art director of nestle. So while stuck in the traffic..the third world suddenly appeared and knocked on our door for money and i looked down and uttered "oh not again please." and then my group mates all looked at me with disgust and said "Ikaw, penisulares ka talaga!" Offcourse they got the wrong message. I told them what was inside me. That those things have been bothering me for a long time already BUT I CANNOT DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. It is like everywhere..that even if i start now it would not solve anything. The 'watcher' me won again. As i've said before.. i have always been a watcher! watcher watcher watcher...never a doer. I just like feeling the 'feeling' you know.
"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. “Never leave that till tomorrow,” he said, “Which you can do today.” This is the man who discovered electricity. You’d think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong? What if you make a mistake you can’t undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true: that by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it. It can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically."
I wonder when am i gonna do it.
So school is done.
Slob mode turned ON again.
It's been three days and i've seen 4 movies and finished one tv series.
I'm marathoning Sex and the city right now.
Oh...this show makes me sad. After realizing that i'm a mix of Cristina Yang and Alex Karev from Grey's Anatomy.. here it goes again...i think i'm a Miranda slash Carrie...i want to be a Samantha..but i'm not tat brave..i realized that half of my friends are Samantha and yes including all the SEX..i am that behind. and..the sem that was? IMC has taken over my life. That sem especially the last few months was a mix of..
Fastfood take out
Mini stop/7 eleven snack (spec?..spicy korean noodles!)
Extra Joss
Baccus
Dutchmill
Century Tuna
Banana loaf bread
katinko
COFFEEE
and i gained 12lbs.
I Can't live this life..i swear.. i will be washed up when i'm 30..the advertising world is so hassle and full of politics.. yes very devil wears prada..it is man is wolf to man in there..you have to kill or else you'll be kick out of the curb. I can take that..but not as a career..you see i'm freakin sentimental and shit that i'll end up shooting someone if i work in an Ad agency..and besides i am not made for it! it just does not work. My wonderful and intellegent mind LOL is not programmed for those kind. I'll leave it to the others who were born to do that..like Kristia..maygad that girl will be the future of philippine advertising..i swear...remember the name..she will be..and so after realizing that i'm not for advertising.....yesterday i was thinking..thinking..then it came clear..I AM GOING TO FILM SCHOOL!!!!
Okay..so i'll graduate then i'll work for about a year? then i'll fly myself to cebu and go to IAFT..and get their one year program..my parents will prolly allow me then..i've been wanting to have film photography lessons but could not because i have no time and i don't know how to start..i don't really know if i want to work in the film industry here in the country..it is so sabog and full of politcs, even worst than the ad world..well Sara said i can change the film industry here...i doubt it though..i'd rather work in an ad agency than work for Star cineme, regal and all those OMG vomitttt no way..so i guess i just want to learn film so i can express myself..i wanted to direct music videos for indie bands.. or prolly make indie movies..i don't know..maybe i can do that while working in the agency..did not Mark Meily of Unitel started in the ad world then went off to do indie films? i don't know..Gosh i want to do sooo many things..i can't wait to graduate. Work in sports related. Photography. Film. Music videos. Learn 3 languages. Travel the world. Charity. Be fabulous . I swear i'm going to change world.
Shitt.. i can't die..yet i'll be so sad. I'm just starting.
Crap first things first..i have to pass all my subjects this sem. Praying.
I want a watch! a nice one not like those tiny thin ones.. i like the ones for guys!!! those big scary ones! Shit i've been waking up these past few months with that though shouting "i want a watch watch watch!" i swear i will be sick if i don't get one soon. My brother said i'll get that one from Kenneth Cole but i'm confused..i want a technomarine but i'm too dukha right now for that..the kenneth Cole is fine but there is this one i saw..super perfect the design..as in.. but it is from SWATCH! hahah i loved swatch when i was a kid..lol i did not even know it is still there till i saw the watch.. crap..i don't care if it's a swatch..it's the most beautiful swatch ever..i will it.
I'm so bored but i love it.
I miss my bed..i haven't been sleeping here since IMC..my house has been my groupmates'..i just go home to get clothes..so unhealthy..now i'm making BAWI.. big time! I'm eating like a pig again! My contruction worker appetite is back! hahah
omg this post is messed up.bored bored bored
/SLOB ROANNA ON
Brandon Rogers got the boot today. :(
He was the first of the final 12 to be cut. I kind of expected it. He does not want to win. He's not exerting much effort compared to the others. It's sad because a lot of people fell in love with him during his audition. Maybe he was just reaLly meant to sing backups :( I will always remember that smile. Bye bye Brandon. Nice to know you. I won't prolly watch much idol na. This season is kinda boring.
